Sabado, Hunyo 17, 2006
evergreen primary camp was wonderful and inspirational.i truly thank God and everyone who made this camp possible.sure, i had lots of comments about everything like the inhospitable school and the horrible food and messy political scene and the unpreparedness of everything.i must said this camp has uplifted me and reminded me of the innocence of childhood.back then when everyone was good.precusor: im not at all acting emo.
ok so there were confrontations,backstabbings,and power struggles,glory-seeking etc.but the point is to remember the good parts of the camp.to "extract" and leave behind unpleasant memories.oh well.hahh the whole episode reminds me of something that happened a few years ago.just that that time, not all the good people stood together.that time,the bad people still had support.so the feeling of betrayal and hypocrisy and dissappointment are not unfamiliar.thinking about it,its been almost 2 years.i remember the tears and agony.and the tearing inside.2 years down the road,i cannot say i've completely forgiven.but i know one day i will.carrying a heavy burden is tiring.letting go is important.yet each time i see you,i wonder, was it neccessary to go through so much?to let a 14 year old enter the adult world so soon?thats why i was so upset when the exco and facs welcomed the little kids to harsh reality so soon.let them enjoy their innocence and youth.we should have protected them!i asked God manyatimes why.it was far too early.i guess it was the best.
but i love group 4.yeah some people kind of angry our group so pro.wdv.i just love kids and i mean all of them!they're really sweet and nice and loving and caring.(((((((((((((: the kids just negated all the negative stuff of the complex world.whatever.im talking like a pyschologist.action barbie.
thanks to everyone who made this camp possible.and thanks to every evergreen kiddo.go for the sky!and thanks to my main company in camp elaine,gen,ben! (copying elaine) hahha.and many many thanks to ben who so nicely provided us with GOOD lodging.unlike bad uncles who chased us away!growl.
the whole camp was fun.and its the most-enjoyed camp i've ever attended.and my first time as a non-camper camp!normally i kind of dread camps.not a v enthu dude.but im v enthu this time!yay!i miss all my little kids like NAZ!!haikal,cheryl,kevin,vincent,khairul,zixin,kok hong, HAHAHA AND GOOD OLD ROHAN THE HOT LOTUS!ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh evergreen is ever green to me!
day 0 was stupid.but subsequent days made super up for it!
struggling; but failing. and, its gone.
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